I've been waiting two years, six months, five days, and approximately four hours (and counting), for a dishwasher to materialize in this house. Which is really all I want to say about that at this time.
Well, on the other hand . . .
We broke down and bought one the other day, not exactly for Epiphany's birthday, but the fact that they gave us today as a delivery/installation date did, I thought, have a certain
je ne sais quoi about it. Last Christmas in her stocking she received a pair of glammy rubber housewife gloves, which she wore until they disintegrated, which they did pretty quickly, dishwater being rough stuff and all. And now, supposedly, the Wise Men are bringing her, and the rest of us, a dishwasher. Supposedly the Wise Men were going to call us between nine and ten this morning, too, which the Wise Men did not do, which worries me a little. Did they get on the wrong side of Herod after all? Or are they just lost and out of cell-phone range? Or what?
Anyway, all day yesterday she kept remarking that her fingernails are going to be gorgeous now. The machine's not even in the house -- it's out there somewhere in the wilds on the camel's back, trying to follow the star to Fiat -- and already the sloth and vanity are kicking in. Says the paragon of diligence and humility, to the mirror which is this blog. Technology: bad for the soul, maybe, but fab for the fingernails.
So, she's seventeen today, and she's teaching my Greek class for me, because I have to sit here waiting for the Wise Men to show up with a dishwasher. She didn't want to teach my Greek class; on the other hand, she knows at least as much Greek as I do, so why not? I gave her a crossword puzzle and a Greek-letter search and some other busy stuff for them to do, and I dropped her and the others off at the church, and I came home where, even though I had to miss Mass, it is nice and quiet, which seems redemptive in its own way. Happy E's birthday to me.
We took down the Christmas tree yesterday, which I realize is a massive no-no, since the Twelve Days weren't over, and the calendar stays gold till the Feast of the Baptism of the Lord on Sunday. So it's beginning to look a lot less like Christmas around here, even though technically it still is Christmas and really could be until Candlemas. I lose the Living-the-Liturgical-Year Award, right out of the starting gate.
Or do I? (well, yes, I do, but let's talk anyway). First of all, the tree was beginning to curl at the tips, never a sign of increasing longevity. Second of all, liturgical year or no liturgical year, there are going to be seven children in this house all weekend, and the four who live here all the time knock over enough stuff already. We're just not even going to discuss the nerf-gun ban currently in effect here, or the origins of what looks like, but is not, exactly, a bullet hole in the glass on the framed print in the upstairs hall, the one depicting a butterfly, a fish, and a hen all standing, one on top of the other, on the back of a large pink pig, and captioned,
Bremer Stadtmusikanten. B-Mannschaft. Besides, the purple-red nandina sprays which looked so lovely on the mantelpiece two weeks ago were dropping leaves like crazy, which was exactly how the whole thing was starting to drive me.
So yesterday I had the children dismantle the ornaments and the lights, and I swept the greenery out to the compost pile, and Amicus pitched the tree onto the curb. And then I felt depressed. Christmas was over, and I hadn't reveled in it enough. Christmas wasn't over, but I had hurried it out the door.
I did, however, as I habitually do this time of year, keep our various small Nativity sets on display. So if you look hard, you see that Baby Jesus is still here. We haven't raked the coals over the Incarnation just yet, not all the way. The thought struck me, as I looked around at the house, which in the wake of the Christmas purge appeared bleak and denuded, that maybe my impulse hadn't been so out of touch with things after all. It looked a little like Advent again, for one thing: quiet and waiting. And if the greenery and lights had been, metaphorically speaking, the trumpeting of angels, maybe a little bleakness was in order as part of the season, too. Maybe we needed a sense of the ordinary and everyday and mundane, which must surely have settled in once the angels had gone away into heaven and the shepherds returned to their hillsides, and while the Wise Men were still wandering around looking for the right place to deliver the dishwasher. Maybe we needed, too, at least retrospectively, the austere memory of the Holy Innocents, and the homelessness of the flight into Egypt.
The season continues, but it has many moods, and this is the one we're in right now. No light but clear daylight, and the everyday feast of getting on with things. I am thinking that this is not so bad, after all, but I'll be a lot happier when the Wise Men finally get here.
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